Decision #1

I am fat, unfit, stressed and yet I have a wonderful life with a terrific husband and son and a supportive family.  And I am happy; but not as happy or as well as I could be.  So it's all down to me - I am where I am because of decisions I have made.  I could make a lot of excuses about ill health and so on and on and on, but in the end, I am what I have made me.

I've tried several times to get out of this situation by concentrating on losing weight and getting fit, but it was always goal based: I need to lose X kilos, I need to be able to run x kilometres.  These attempts didn't work in the long term.

So this time I'm forgetting goals and scales and kms.  I am concentrating on the process: by making 1000 good decisions I'm hoping to get myself into the good habits of mind and body.

What is a good decision?

• When I choose health-giving food over health-impairing food (since I have a lot of allergies, this is a bit more complicated for me than for most people, which is why I didn't say 'healthy' food)
• When I choose activity over inactivity
• When I choose stress reduction over stress-creation
• When I choose sanity.  This one is a bit complicated.  Some people might call it choosing simplicity, or spirituality, or mindfulness, or slowness, or connection, or generosity.  I see it as choosing enrichment.  Instead of the consumer-driven desire to have more, I want to choose to be more.

A bad decision is the opposite of these. 

I figure I need to make 3-5 good decisions a day.  I'm not counting the things I already do, like cook for my family at night.  These are new decisions, new habits of being.

I'm going off now to buy myself one of those clicker-counters they use at night clubs to keep track of the numbers of patrons. 

So, Good Decision # 1:  starting this blog
Good Decision #2: buying the counter.

 Wish me luck!